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dryadgrlI'm tired. All the time. Less than last month, but v tired. I see my doc again this week and that's now high on the priority list. I'm ready for more energy.
I'm finding that I'm hungry regularly and I'm not falling down if I don't eat immediately. But I do need to eat. I can't wait very long.
I find that I can't tell when I'm full. I can tell when I'm not hungry. But if I stop eating when I'm not hungry, I need to eat within an hour, often a half an hour. So I have to sit for quite a while and really focus on how I feel and even then I don't always know.
My sugar cravings are nearly gone. And I'm pretty sensitive to sugar - my body just doesn't want it any more. I do sometimes eat it when I feel stressed, but not everyday and not nearly as much. I need real food and can't get away with lightweight snacks. It has to be substantial food.
I found out that more of my symptoms than I knew show up in the thyroid stuff. I've been reading Body Restoration: http://www.bodyrestorationanownersmanual.com/ and there are a couple more symptoms involved in thyroid stuff than I realized namely light sensitivity and dry itchy skin issues.
What that means to me is that, while I do have to deal with the symptoms, they are being treated in this medication. (Meaning that I do need to put lotion on my legs but this is one more reason to keep taking my medication and I don't have to look for other reasons. I can let it go.)
So there's something exciting about that.
I also felt content today. I don't feel like i need to do as much, especially in terms of volunteerism. As my adrenals get fixed I get hits of my sense of worthiness and of love and community. I'm just worrying less. Way less. And that means I'm getting more things actually done and resting more. Strange combination.
But what happens in anxiety is that I spend a lot of time trying to deal with the emotions - whether that's trying to get present or meditate or move or solve or avoid or whatever and that energy is tuck there. I can't relax because I'm stressed and I can't do anything because my focus is tied up in the issue. I'm stuck. Paralyzed.
Somehow this frees up energy so that while I am worrying sometimes, it's not nearly as intense and I can get things done. It still seems to mean that somethings aren't quite done on time (stress things) but they are getting closer and closer to deadlines.
I'm finding that I'm hungry regularly and I'm not falling down if I don't eat immediately. But I do need to eat. I can't wait very long.
I find that I can't tell when I'm full. I can tell when I'm not hungry. But if I stop eating when I'm not hungry, I need to eat within an hour, often a half an hour. So I have to sit for quite a while and really focus on how I feel and even then I don't always know.
My sugar cravings are nearly gone. And I'm pretty sensitive to sugar - my body just doesn't want it any more. I do sometimes eat it when I feel stressed, but not everyday and not nearly as much. I need real food and can't get away with lightweight snacks. It has to be substantial food.
I found out that more of my symptoms than I knew show up in the thyroid stuff. I've been reading Body Restoration: http://www.bodyrestorationanownersmanual.com/ and there are a couple more symptoms involved in thyroid stuff than I realized namely light sensitivity and dry itchy skin issues.
What that means to me is that, while I do have to deal with the symptoms, they are being treated in this medication. (Meaning that I do need to put lotion on my legs but this is one more reason to keep taking my medication and I don't have to look for other reasons. I can let it go.)
So there's something exciting about that.
I also felt content today. I don't feel like i need to do as much, especially in terms of volunteerism. As my adrenals get fixed I get hits of my sense of worthiness and of love and community. I'm just worrying less. Way less. And that means I'm getting more things actually done and resting more. Strange combination.
But what happens in anxiety is that I spend a lot of time trying to deal with the emotions - whether that's trying to get present or meditate or move or solve or avoid or whatever and that energy is tuck there. I can't relax because I'm stressed and I can't do anything because my focus is tied up in the issue. I'm stuck. Paralyzed.
Somehow this frees up energy so that while I am worrying sometimes, it's not nearly as intense and I can get things done. It still seems to mean that somethings aren't quite done on time (stress things) but they are getting closer and closer to deadlines.
