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Inching along
Jun. 19th, 2012 06:48 amTonight I finally was able to discharge some of the intense depression and do something else. I went for a walk on my own up in the hills. I haven't been able to get myself outside for more than a walk to the car in a long time.
So I walked. And I felt better. I've been cooking for myself and mostly cleaning up the cooking. I managed to eat well all day the last 3 days and not die. I'm still not brave enough to do the all day fruit day or the soup day on the cleanse. I'm totally terrified that I'll get sick.
I can walk easily today for about 20 minutes before the pain hit and 5 more minutes before I had to sit down. But that's a huge improvement over Saturday when I barely made it to the car. I still have some pain, but it's normal, every day pain for me rather than the screeching halt pain. I had most of a year at least with almost no pain. I want to go back to that.
I signed up for the thyroid community on LJ, but it's very allopathic medicine focused. Which makes me sad. Not because that's what people want, but because so far there's no one that's said that they've even tried any other way. I know that I might have to do it that way, but I want to know what all the options are and what is and isn't effective. What I'm doing now has worked extraordinarily well all things considered.
I guess I want credit for all that work. And I don't want to get addicted to the pharma drugs. My research has said that taking t4 pharma meds means that your body will never increase t4 production basically sticking you with the meds forever. I don't know that it has to be that way. We've done something that's causing massive numbers of people to have these disorders and I think there should be a way back to health. Not just to addiction and dependence. Even if that dependence is on things that make us feel well.
It's like a trap as far as I can tell. For short-term, it makes sense - take something that helps you feel better so that you can make better decisions. Long term there has to be a solution. Just like to anti-depressants. Your lifestyle has to change, we have to stop working so many hours and start working together to be well and whole in relationship and community.
Anyway, I finally got some shit done and started the ball moving on feeling better. I'm hoping by next week I'll feel a lot better. All good wishes and good vibes welcome.
So I walked. And I felt better. I've been cooking for myself and mostly cleaning up the cooking. I managed to eat well all day the last 3 days and not die. I'm still not brave enough to do the all day fruit day or the soup day on the cleanse. I'm totally terrified that I'll get sick.
I can walk easily today for about 20 minutes before the pain hit and 5 more minutes before I had to sit down. But that's a huge improvement over Saturday when I barely made it to the car. I still have some pain, but it's normal, every day pain for me rather than the screeching halt pain. I had most of a year at least with almost no pain. I want to go back to that.
I signed up for the thyroid community on LJ, but it's very allopathic medicine focused. Which makes me sad. Not because that's what people want, but because so far there's no one that's said that they've even tried any other way. I know that I might have to do it that way, but I want to know what all the options are and what is and isn't effective. What I'm doing now has worked extraordinarily well all things considered.
I guess I want credit for all that work. And I don't want to get addicted to the pharma drugs. My research has said that taking t4 pharma meds means that your body will never increase t4 production basically sticking you with the meds forever. I don't know that it has to be that way. We've done something that's causing massive numbers of people to have these disorders and I think there should be a way back to health. Not just to addiction and dependence. Even if that dependence is on things that make us feel well.
It's like a trap as far as I can tell. For short-term, it makes sense - take something that helps you feel better so that you can make better decisions. Long term there has to be a solution. Just like to anti-depressants. Your lifestyle has to change, we have to stop working so many hours and start working together to be well and whole in relationship and community.
Anyway, I finally got some shit done and started the ball moving on feeling better. I'm hoping by next week I'll feel a lot better. All good wishes and good vibes welcome.
