I does what now?

Two recent FB posts start to sum up some of the recent changes:
My hunger used to only have two settings: not hungry and starving. With the recent shifts in medication I now have settings like "a little bit hungry," "a little bit full," and this weird brand new setting called "I think I'm going to be hungry in about half an hour." Until this week I thought when people said that they were making it up! Wow!

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My brain just did a funny thing. I was standing in front of cake that Tia's dad made and just behind it is the fruit bowl. My belly said, "... mmmm.... apple pear...." a la Homer Simpson. Then my brain said, "Wait. What!?" But it was too late, I had already crunched into the apple-pear. Too bad cake, you lose this round!

Additionally I touched the cake and thought maybe I'd have a bite as well, but my stomach got a bit sick and I knew that the cake would make me feel bad. Just like that.

It seems like my sensitivity is returning and coming to the surface in useful ways.
My body is signaling me in useful and surprising ways.

I keep thinking that other people might have this experience regularly and wonder just how far off my body has been.

I also managed to go home from an event last night before the end of it. Just say my goodbyes and leave because I was tired and not influenced by other people, even amazing other people. It's like I'm actually home in my body for the first time.

I took Kiddo to park day yesterday and he had a great time and finally connected into the teen group and got a couple of phone numbers. It occurs to me this morning that maybe his development was contingent upon mine. Now that I'm growing and changing rapidly again, so can he. And he can do so without worrying about me because I'm all set.

This morning I was also digging my single life. I mean I have a great boyfriend, but he's far away and i have a couple of other connections, but no one else is living here and I'm not beholden to or dependent on anyone else. I can sleep sprawled out in bed and take up all the space. I don't have to listen to anyone else snore and can go to bed and get up when I want! It's pretty great actually.

And earlier this week I got in touch with some loneliness as well which was kind of awesome. I've not really felt lonely in a long time. I've been crying pretty much every day. Not big sobbing crying, just little bits here and there as things touch me.

I'll end with one last FB update from earlier this week:
Yesterday on my way to Marin I found myself singing love songs to myself and soaking up the love. Today I really enjoyed making a kale omlette with leeks and onions and garlic inspired by Ian Waisler. I feel happy, content even. Something has definitely changed!

New info from the doc

I am very anemic. Very, very, very. She double my daily dose of liquid iron supplement for the foreseeable future.

I was curious about why not iodine and what I get is that iodine helps detox and now that I'm all detoxed we have to build up the amount of thyroid hormones to get it working again. So no iodine for now.

It also means that I have to deal more directly with the symptoms of thyroid stuff that were being masked by iodine and other things. Right now it seems like those symptoms are anemia related primarily: exhaustion, inability to maintain body-tempreature and dress for the weather, memory and foggy headedness and constant low-level abdominal cramping/pain (mostly in the morning when I haven't taken the iron in awhile).

So I'm tired. It's been better the last few days and worse today. It seems that skipping 2 doses of iron and having a big day yesterday is too many things.

She tools me off of one of the kidney support supplements (the last one!). It seems that eating much less sugar and taking the other stuff and eating lots better consistently means that my kidneys are having an easier time of it. That is very good news. We'll see how it is come bleeding time. I didn't have any nightmares last time before PMS, just one vivid dreams (about zombies).

What else?

I need to really rest more and she doesn't know for how much longer. So I am thinking I need to be home about 5 nights a week. I think if I'd really been being home 4 nights a week, that could work as well.

On an unrelated note, I discovered the joys of downloading music in iTunes for my iPod. I'm hoping this is not yet another way of wasting money. But then I haven't bought new music in a very long time (probably 4 CDs in 6 years or there a bouts).